I couldn’t calmly and rationally think about the possibilities, too overwhelmed, the body in a state of terror, overwhelmed with the shame and the shaming of such a scenario fully descended on me. And all this is happening days prior to the Belgian premiere of the documentary film “Les Survivantes” in a Brussels movie theater - the film we were shooting when I visited the criminologist along with the film crew.

What does the devil look like? Is it the classic image of the horned red devil, the bearer of light Lucifer, the intersex demon Baphomet, the prince of hell Baal, or is it impersonal yet everywhere, the general delusion reigning on earth of which Hinduism speaks: Maya?

In the network, humiliation is a many-faceted tool, since so much of the illustrious members’ motivation for participating in the first place is to escape their own, initial childhood humiliations, gain power exponentially, so as to never feel that profound, painful, shameful discomfort ever again.

While the adrenaline rushed through my veins, I was frozen, rigid, and my right arm began to shake. The voice of the part that had stored this memory quickly pointed to the chimney of the tower being new, and said it was still in use.

What is weakness in the network, is in real life vulnerability - the tender space in one’s psyche where the inner child is still seeking for the love, acceptance and nurturing it never received. In the cold, bloodless domain where psychopaths rule, where humanity is reduced to the hunter-prey level, a person’s weakness is the prey’s wound, the gateway to their downfall.

When I write about yoga, Christians may comment that it is satanic. Yoga does seem to have been coopted by satanists who reduce everything to the physical. However, it is no better to take all verses of the Bible literally, or to believe that to reach Christ all one has to do is to accept him just once.

I squeezed my little friend's hand as we began our walk. It seemed endless. He cried softly.

Power is based on anger, and offers a platform from which revenge can be had in perpetuity on all those lower in rank.

Behind my conviction that I was evil was hidden horrendous shame. This shame was very hard to bear.

Whenever you are asked to mock someone, or something being said, it would be helpful to pause, and wonder if you are being goaded through mass mind control..

Politics are thus polarized, in that each citizen’s own unconscious trauma contributes to allegiance to one side and vilification of the other, while the focus of the real evil perpetuated by those behind the politics, the abusive “parents” of the world, remains obscured.

What I know from my experience is that the psychopathic leadership needs division so as to maintain control.

When victims go public, it is because the abuse and subsequent cover ups have awakened inside them a sacred duty of speaking up for the sake of others who may be suffering in silence.

The problem with the elite is that their narcissism - an emotionally decrepit condition which places them, like infants, at the center of the universe - has them convinced others are lucky to be near them.

Fear, when it is externalized, turns into aggression, and good people are now riding their privilege train to aggressively shut down anyone questioning their opinion, or patiently breaking down rigid, politically divisive statements.

Judgment at a distance is fear up close. Does our judgment for our sisters and brothers flow from the fear of the force behind the vertical power system? Or is it another fear that creates it? We judge what we are afraid is in ourselves. There has never been a more perfect time to internalize, to take stock of everything, to work on ourselves for the sake of all, and to overcome fears so that we can be more loving in all that we do.

While it is rightfully considered scandalous and disgraceful to put out racist or homophobic statements and publications, it remains wholly acceptable to utter disgusting sexist filth in songs pumped through the airwaves in public places, make overtly sexist comments in tv, radio, podcast or video interviews, or publish blatantly sexist articles or blogposts, lumping all women, and sometimes all white women, together in one despicably shameful pile.

Depending on the politics at the studio, family dynamics are repeated in one’s rank in the power structure. In ashtanga, I was almost a non-entity.