The Cage

When I expressed my own thoughts about his insane plans for my life, a look of disgust spread over his face. He instantly rejected me, violently, and forever. His change was so drastic I immediately regretted my words.

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Anneke Lucas
The Girl in the Ditch

What is denial? It is a state of incomplete trauma. It is the condition of being stuck in the very first stage of unprocessed trauma: shock and disbelief. It is the prolonged inability to believe that the parent you believed loved you, only used you.

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Anneke Lucas
The Test

Am I being asked to stand unshaken in the crash between my past and future, bridging our world as it was and what it is becoming?

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Anneke Lucas
A pedophile's mindset

The brainwashing that morality is for fools and that intelligent people’s open-mindedness means they have to accept everything and anything sexually, is massive. These are the underpinnings of what remains of this man’s world.

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Anneke Lucas
MeToo, in two parts

Asia Argento was openly out for revenge during her Cannes speech. She was fighting power with power. The way to undo the power structure requires for us to remove ourselves from the power structure, to be humble actors towards true egalitarianism.

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Anneke Lucas
My father

He sat down, accepted coffee and started to tell me about the family. He had brought photos. It was incredible. There they were, all brown-eyed artists - every one of them.

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Anneke Lucas
The eternal war of hurt children

Recently, a young part in me was revived in interactions with someone whose own young part was just as hurt and tormented as mine. With awareness, this could lead to mutual working through a difficult past, remaining respectful of each other, mindful to keep separating the hurt child from the adult. Without awareness, it creates war.

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Anneke Lucas
International Day of the Girl

Welcome, International Day of the Girl. Welcome future leaders, who will lead with empathy instead of aggression. Welcome all you girls whose power is uncoupled from your sexuality, because you are the dawn of liberation.

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Anneke Lucas
A different perpetrator

The handler who has been watching me opens the doors to let me In the grand salon of the castle where an orgy is in full swing. I am ten years old and pretend to notice nothing and no one.

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Anneke Lucas
A Little Spy

My charge was terror, and my story was training. Training in a dirty lab/prison camp in Germany under the auspices of a Nazi doctor.

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Anneke Lucas
The Superhero of the Superhero Training

The sex slave training lasted one month. While I have no recollection of the official story of my absence that summer, I do remember my mother pressing her lips together and shaking her head, confiding in me that she had not enjoyed the family vacation of that year.

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Anneke Lucas
Defiance

I was 11 years old and a burning cigarette was pushed out on my arm. Even though I could smell my flesh burn, I didn't feel anything. My gaze was intensely locked with a young man's standing about ten feet from me, who was the reason for my situation. It was to be the last chapter of his yearlong projection that was to end in my death.

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